Even If They Aren't Sorry
Has someone ever made you incredibly mad? Think about the time you've been the maddest you've ever been in your life. How did you feel at that moment and the time after, whether it was a couple minutes, hours, or maybe even days. Didn't it suck? I found myself in a situation like this yesterday. I was stuck with said person for 6 hours. I couldn't say anything back because I feared my words would be hurtful. Couldn't leave because I had an obligation. Why didn't I say anything back when they used words that cut right through me? Like I said in my first post 'What Life Has Taught Me', people will always do and say stupid things. This particular person was someone I work with. Now, I've had a job since I was 15. My mom told me before I started that job that there will always be someone who is difficult to work with. And man, was she right. For 6 years, just a fraction of the time I'll be working in my life, I have worked with every side of difficult. But it wasn't until yesterday that I felt truly belittled and hurt. I don't get upset easily, and I'd like to think I have some pretty thick skin. But, the more I thought about it, the more angry I got, and the more angry I got the more exhausted I got. I decided that I was going to forgive them, even if they weren't sorry. A couple reasons for that. Number one: I don't have any extra space in my head for worries - there's already too much I have to remember. Number two: I'm only walking through this life once, I'm going to make sure my relationships with people, no matter who they might be or what they may have done to me, be relationships that I don't regret.
Ruminating on something gets you nowhere. Whether that something is how you were treated, something you forgot to do, or maybe that you have to clean your room later. There are a couple sayings related to this that I like.
"Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere."
"Holding a grudge is letting someone live rent free in your head."
It took me a good 24 hours to get over how this person made me feel. To be frank, I'm pissed at myself. I could have gotten so much more done during the day than sitting and letting this fester in my head. So here's to not holding grudges and to letting your worries go. Half the things we worry about don't ever happen anyway, right? Tomorrow is a new day.
K